Nothing to be grateful for
Morning depression is the inability to get out of bed in the morning, where the depressive episodes are heavier and causing the sufferer hyper-insomnia, which means that the person just sleeps longer. Usually, it feels like a slow suicide, but when you are awake.
Hyper insomnia in a depressive episode, means I am avoiding reality, leave me alone, please. We don’t straw the curtains back and face the light, kind of ironic. Those mornings where your brain shuts off and nothing to be grateful for. The person doesn’t have a stable morning routine to wake up to, their life exists in the chaos, they can’t just escape, so the cycle just keeps repeating.
Especially in this pandemic were facing, feels like it’s never going back to normal, and we’re just stuck sitting in our madness. We pretend to enjoy our suffering day today, it’s like our personal addiction that we enjoy. We pretend for our toxic family, a job that you don’t like. Those elements alone, take your energy away, then you just can’t wake up.
We let these run our lives because let us be honest it is easier to revel in it than to fix it and face our responsibilities. It is a personal choice, that everyone has to make at some point in their lives.
